[04 Aug 2005|04:33am] everything has gotten a little better. i just got home for the first time. and honestly i missed it. the 4 of us ran away for a while. we went to las vegas. hotel rooms, crack, whiskey, and crystal meth. we also rolled alot. i can't explain everything that happened. i was never sober. not once. life isn't something i'd say i love right now, but i've been having the best time of my life. i think i'm going to go to school for the first week, and then drop out. marquet did, and now she's free. i just want to get high all day. kill it

[17 Jun 2005|01:42pm] this sucks. bobby might be in trouble. theres cops watching his house alot. they think we dont see. but we do. we all have to be discreet for a while. we all agreed. but that means weeks without anything. and i feel like im dying. we're using all my left overs, and elizo is going on run on the outsides of LA, but that worries me, because i dont want him caught. so he does it rarely. i swear we're all gonna die. i want to kill who ever gave the cops a tip. marquet is so upset. and i dont know what to do anymore. why am i on the computer... kill it

[25 Feb 2005|05:34pm] um. i forgot about this lame thing. but im going to be a loser and write something. lets see, ive being having fun. elizo and me are having the best time, i really love him. my mom put me in AA, but i never really go to their meetings. she did it after i got kicked out of school the 3rd time. see she tried to put me in some private schools, to "help me" yeah, dumb bitch. but enough about her. i tried crystal meth for the first time a few weeks ago. it was crazy, i dont really remember things, like i cant tell truth from reality at that point. but i hope to get it again. these black girls at school call me a crackhead all the time in the hallway. elizo wants to slit their throats. but you cant harm those who state the obvious. i do kinda look like one, aside from the fact that i do smoke crack...its my drug of choice. but seriously, it seems i have nothing else to share in this thing. except my drugs. marquet is taking me to see a movie tonight. girls night. i love that girl. she thinks AA is stupid too. we're skipping every meeting now and going to the movies, then starbucks, and then smoke in the car. marquet understands me, regardless of anything, we can share anything. her and her boyfriend are still together. bobby is a sweetheart, i can count on him for anything. well, i have to go. i want a cigar before marquet gets here which is soon. i probably wont update this thing again. either because i forget again, i dont want to, or i die. we all die sooner or later. kill it

[01 Sep 2004|04:54pm] [ mood | cold ] [ music | cradle of filth. ] wow. i read my past posts. boy was i an idiot. red cliff was hell. they tried to take everything from me. my drugs, my life. trying to take away my womanhood, stupid faggots calling me a slut. i faked my way out of that shit. haha, i should be an actress really. my mom cries about me now, she's just a loser. i hate her. i met this girl marquet. she's got this awesome hook-up. we used to sneek in drugs all the time, her boyfriend bobby helped us. i missed the cocaine, but i then we got speed and some xanax so that sufficed for the last few months we were in there. bobby's friend, elizo. him and i have been dating since the first week i've gotten in there. it's really lasted, i don't know what i'd do without him. from the ever so superfical "lets get some dope" sentiment, to the "i'll take you out for a walk" caring that just has...changed me. marquet and me are really tight now, the four of us are a team. all my old friends think i've turned into some druggy, but i think i just look awesome. i lost 20 lbs, and now im 89 lbs which is so great. elizo says i'm beautiful. all my old friends were half assed sluts anyways. i don't need that. i need the drugs. i need them. i haven't had a fix since yesterday, but good thing that elizo is comming over tonight. and this layout is too fucking trippy, must kill it. hillary duff can suck my dick. kill it

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